The Gilded Razor: A Memoir PDF/EPUB Ð Razor: A

The Gilded Razor: A Memoir PDF/EPUB Ð Razor: A

The Gilded Razor: A Memoir [Download] ➹ The Gilded Razor: A Memoir Author Sam Lansky – As featured in People magazine Vanity Fair and on Entertainment Weekly’s Must List Sharply funny and compulsively readable The Gilded Razor is a dazzling and harrowing memoir from debut author Sam L Razor: A PDF/EPUB ì As featured in People magazine Vanity Fair and on Entertainment Weekly’s Must List Sharply funny and compulsively readable The Gilded Razor is a dazzling and harrowing memoir from debut author Sam Lansky The Gilded Razor is the true story of a double life By the age of seventeen Sam Lansky was an all star student with Ivy League aspirations in his final year The Gilded Kindle - at an elite New York City prep school But a nasty addiction to prescription pills spiraled rapidly out of control compounded by a string of reckless affairs with older men leaving his bright future in jeopardy After a terrifying overdose he tried to straighten out Yet as he journeyed from the glittering streets of Manhattan to a wilderness boot camp in Utah to a Gilded Razor: A PDF/EPUB è psych ward in New Orleans he only found opportunities to create chaos—until finally he began to face himselfIn the vein of Elizabeth Wurtzel and Augusten Burroughs Lansky scrapes away at his own life as a young addict and exposes profoundly universal anxieties Told with remarkable sensitivity biting humor and unrelenting self awareness The Gilded Razor is a coming of age story of searing honesty and lyricism that introduces a powerful new voice to the confessional genre.

10 thoughts on “The Gilded Razor: A Memoir

  1. Peter Monn Peter Monn says:

    An amazing addiction memoir I related to this so much since I got sober at the same age Check out my full review on my booktube channel

  2. Greg Kearney Greg Kearney says:

    Rich white kid does drugs and has lots of sex then goes to rehab How fresh What a crucial new voice Competent on a sentence to sentence basis otherwise completely unnecessary And that pompous prologue that begins For many years after it was over like being a party boy is akin to running barefoot from marauding Cossacks Ugh

  3. Robert Moscalewk Robert Moscalewk says:

    Maybe he saw in me the same sickness that I saw in myself – it was hard to miss – but the exuisite agony of that rejection was paralytic reinforcing some privately held belief that I was fundamentally damaged or defective True intimacy was a distant point on the horizon too evanescent to count on 287 I apologize if this review will seem to some of you too subjective to be taken seriously yet as I kept reading Sam Lansky’s memoir I had the feeling I could fully sympathize with the narrator albeit I’ve had no experience with addiction I have struggled with anorexia at one point in my life and I know what self loathing can do to people I also met Sam in New York City when he came to Strand Bookstore to talk about his book and to be frank meeting him in person has had a rather strange effect on my reading Because here was this guy who seemed so fabulously and incredibly normal a guy whose legs twitched nervously while sitting on the high wooden chair in the Rare Books Room on the third floor of the bookstore and who sometimes struggled for words and who kept saying that it was amazing to be there and who hugged almost all of those who stayed behind to have their copies signed by the author and thanked them personally for their support but who conversely seemed so fragile and broken in his writing so devoured by this “insatiable need for validation” That side of “Sam” that you will come to discover if you decide to read The Gilded Razor resembles an open city in ruins particularly in the last few pages of the book when the writing turns to feverish hues and every instant seems to flow into the next one up to the point when one cannot distinguish between them The contrast between these two personas is simply stunning which is most likely due to Sam’s “miraculous” recovery and current fabulousness There were moments in my reading when I simply wanted to stop look up imagine Sam right in front of me and ask him “Did this really happen? Or is this just embellishment?” The honesty of the narrating voice is at times almost uncomfortable you’ll read about excessive drinking substance abuse and sex orgies with unknown men among other things I'm a small town guy But all of that honesty comes from a place of pain and Sam Lansky has all my respect for having the courage of going “back there” in order to be able to talk about himself so freely I personally could never do it and if I did that I have always kept it hidden swept everything under the rug of metaphor “Pain” writes Elaine Scarry in The Body in Pain “is a pure physical experience of negation an immediate sensory rendering of ‘against’ of something being against one and of something one must be against Even though it occurs within oneself it is at once identified as ‘not oneself’ ‘not me’ as something so alien that it must right now be gotten rid of Pain begins by being ‘not oneself’ and ends by having eliminated all that is ‘not itself’” In this sense at times during my reading of Sam’s memoir I had the feeling that the narrator was acutely experiencing this break between his own self and that other thing represented by his pain on the one hand triggered by his parents’ divorce and reinforced on the other hand by his self loathing As the narrator himself explains at one point one of the reasons for his substance abuse was the fear of gaining weight and going back to being chubby Drugs are mere cover ups in this whole narrative a thin veil meant to postpone if not to deflect confrontation with one’s problems And in The Gilded Razor the narrator does just that He falls prey to his own body and the endless cycle of expectations he believes he is supposed to fulfill The final feverish pages are in my view just what Scarry talks about in The Body in Pain the moment when pain has eliminated all that is “not itself” namely whatever was left of the narrator’s fragile persona and has begun to act on its own looking only to satisfy its own needs regardless of the conseuences that kind of satisfaction entails This is even apparent towards the end of the book My father picked me up at Vassar the night before my flight His face was stony as I carried boxes downstairs Perhaps he was afraid of me or maybe he was just incredulous that I’d managed to do this again But I couldn’t see what he saw the pattern of embarrassing mistakes and unfulfilled commitments that was starting to become so predictable I only saw the sharp edged specifics of each little catastrophe clinging to this insistent belief that it could have been different if only the world had been kinder to me I would have told anyone who would listen that the blame lay with the university that should have kept a closer eye on me the parents who should have loved me fiercely the friends who were such a bad influence the rehabs that failed to fix me Just so long as I didn’t have to admit that it was all my fault 271 272In recollection the pattern seems obvious At the time of writing it all seemed predictable But there is a sense that at the level of experience something else was acting on behalf of the narrator Later on in another moment of recollection the idea resurfacesYet if I had been asked what I wanted on a grand existential plane I probably would have said that all I wanted was to love and be loved I couldn’t say why I thought any of the things that I was doing would bring me love but I was so lonely terribly lonelyMaybe drug addicts are just people who feel loneliness with the acuteness of bad fever I was uick to fall in love with any man who made me think that maybe we could have the sort of love that I always wanted A uiet domestic love that would provide me with the satisfaction that a thousand one night stands never could But that was also the kind of uiet domestic love that I believed even if I would never vocalize this note of internalized homophobia gay men simply weren’t allowed to have – but that wouldn’t stop me from trying 285 my emphasisAnd yet that was the thing that bothered me most the narrator takes maybe too much advantage of his position and explains matters excessively at times He does go back there in that murky place called pain but he’s always keeping one foot in the door not entirely letting the reader inside the story It is as if he feels this compelling need to tell the story but is yet too afraid to fully submerge in it afraid that maybe he won’t be able to come back perhaps Except in the last few pages the ones describing his last relapse before getting sober the addict’s mind is never there present in the narrative but is always filtered through that of the sober older version of the narrator It almost feels as if we’re reading a patient’s chart written in the first person A pleasant read nonetheless Totally recommend it

  4. J David J David says:

    A trite monotonous memoir Sex drugs alcohol; then drugs sex and alcohol then drugs alcohol and sex He writes well but not worth reading

  5. Michelle Michelle says:

    An astonishing and powerfully written LGBT coming of age story also about the intense spiral of addiction and how Sam Lansky's life veered so uickly out of control in The Gilded Razor A MemoirIn Portland Oregon Sam's parents announced their intentions to divorce initially he seemed to take this in stride; until his mother a therapist went on a dream uest to unlock her spirituality naming his father as the most emotionallysexually repressed person she'd ever met While his father promptly relocated to NYC enjoying newfound freedom and bachelorhood Sam observed They were too distracted to parent a child as precocious and strong willed as I was and I had grown skilled at manipulating them into overlooking obvious red flags Joining his father in Manhattan he attended the college prep Dwight School which overlooked Central Park With his father engrossed with his new girlfriend Sam avoided going to class completing his homework got high with other students and sought strangers out online to meet for sex and drugs Understanding his sexual orientation from a very young age Sam didn't have the typical issues of coming to terms with being gay as most young men at 17 Sam had regularly scheduled appointments with Dr Chester who made the diagnosis of generalized anxiety major depressive ADHD which only added to his problems with numerous prescriptions to various pills Sam seemed unrealistically determined to be admitted to Princeton Instead he ended up overdosing and attending a series of three rehab facilitiesprogramsIt wasn't clear if his self absorbed parents realized their actions likely were the root cause of his problems However to their credit both seemed on stand by with genuine offers to help him in anyway possible Sam clung to a sad little flicker of hope in his numerous encounters that someone would actually love him it never occurred to him to date like most people This is an excellent intense fast paced read of sexual addiction and severe substance abuse and later the long redemption leading to recovery Sam Lansky is the editor of Time Magazine his work has been featured in many notable publications this is his first book With thanks to the Seattle Public Library

  6. Rebecca Joy Rebecca Joy says:

    Very rarely do I have to force myself to finish a book unfortunately that's what happened here I was truly intrigued by this book I find addiction fascinating as an outsider but also as a child on an addict The reviews seemed promising which only made me excitedThis memoir while beautifully written was boring repetitive beyond measure and I felt like no story was fully told from start to finish There was no fluidity and jumping around from one half finished story to another was confusing I found myself being annoyed almost the entire time because of the victim woe is me point of view I understand that's how he felt but as a third party it made me sick watching how he treated everyone in his life and the lack of responsibility even after being clean The best part of the entire book was his first rehab stint That's when I felt the most connection to the story and felt the author show some authenticity Bi wish the whole story had felt the way that chapter or two did If you're looking for a memoir about drug addiction and what it's actually like I would forego this book and find a different one I'll sum it up for you nowDrugs sex sex drugs whining sex drugs repeat

  7. Cindy Knoke Cindy Knoke says:

    Lansyky is a very talented writer and this is a powerful honest and brave story that I recommend if you appreciate difficult memoirs I do hope his next book focuses on something other than himself as too much self preoccupation can keep one stuck which can be seen in so many good writers with difficult lives who write multiple memoirs about themselves

  8. Alex Black Alex Black says:

    This was almost hilarious to the point of enjoyment but I don't think that's what Lansky was going for here If you've ever seen those memes about Guy in Your MFA I feel like you've got a pretty good idea of what it was like to read this book I've never heard anyone complain uite so much about being an upper middle class white guy He was gay but don't worry male nipples can also be described in strange ways his mauve nipples were buoyant on the sea of his suntanned chestWhat really irritated me in this book was his tone and how little it seemed like he'd changed from the immature 17 year old he was when he started the book It was full of these shallow patronizing reflections that I think we were meant to take as deep soul searching They felt fake than anything else to me and in the category of narcissistic and manipulative like he'd described himself as a teenThis was sort of encouraged by the way he would always talk about how much he stood out He was always the most or the worst at everything he did no matter where he was or who he was with No one at rehab had been through what he had no one's spirals were as bad as his he alone knew suffering It was eye roll inducing and it wasn't just his thoughts from the time It popped up in his current narration as well It seemed like the only real difference is that now he's sober Which I mean good for him but it doesn't inherently make this book worthwhileThe most disappointing thing was there were moments when I really got into this moments where he actually seemed marginally self aware It was usually when he wasn't trying to throw in any kind of reflection and was just relating his thoughts at the time but it sometimes seemed like he had interesting things to say But unfortunately those were few and far between Most of the time was spent discussing how bitter he was as a teen that his father didn't want to pay for his private university after prep school and three stints in rehab and now adult him recognizing that maybe his father is right It didn't feel like deep introspection to me so much as admitting some basic facts That's about as shallow as reflection can goI read this all in about one sitting because a lot of it was so bad it was entertaining but it's not one I'd recommend Bravo to Lansky for getting and staying clean but I'd suggest passing on reading a book about a teenager who cuts his Adderall with a gold razor to be edgy

  9. Michelle Michelle says:

    Well written gritty memoir about a young man's addiction As a reader your heart feels deeply for the kid we meet at the beginning of the book who is already well on his way to disaster He is so filled with shame for things not of his doing it almost cannibalizes him You get the sense that part of the reason he takes so many drugs and sleeps with countless wretches is because he actually feeds off the shameas if he thinks that's the way he's supposed to feel Oh my heart broke for him a hundred times And of course it makes me worry even about the prescription drug epidemic though he hardly stops there In this book he comes out at 11 which seems early to declare one's sexuality either way Having a 10 and 12 year old myself I cannot fathom either of them making any sort of proclamation about who they'd want to have relations with So it makes me wonder how much of his early abuse accounts for this Again heartbreaking that there are kids that are forced to contemplate such things at a very young age due to the egregious acts of adults A sad tale but ultimately redemptive The writing is honest and he makes no excuses

  10. John Benutty John Benutty says:

    Re classify The Gilded Razor as novel sted memoir and it is the literary companion to William S Burroughs' ueer and James Baldwin's Giovanni's Room Lansky speaks as intelligently and directly about that familiar ueer experience one defined by dive gay bars trysts with older men drugs alcohol sex shame and embarrassment without ever defining his experiences or his book as such Instead he tells the story of his emergence into adulthood as a 17 year old struggling through addiction desperately trying to find a way out in a universal way providing what is essentially a boy's coming of age story much like Catcher in the Rye or even Lord of the FliesReading Lansky is to read a master of prose someone so in control of his own voice that you immediately understand why it isn't far fetched to already be comparing him to Burroughs Baldwin and Salinger

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